Everyone got their salary, no one called to HR department and complaint about their salary...the only bad part is...I am the only one haven't get my pay yet. I have to wait until end of today to fax my timesheet to the agency and wait another week to get my salary...how pity :'( Anyone can sponsor my meal for the coming week? My colleagues all go for expensive food after get salary, the so called celebration after the release of salary..I have no choice but to go with them even my wallet is going to have a big hole. I have to pay for my laptop and rebonding somemore...
Wxin keeps laughing at me as usual via msn. I don't know why she never stop laughing at me and I don't know why she keep on making fun on me. Perhaps I am too funny~ She tell me go tell lion I gg him. What is gg? I went and ask some of my friends, they say gg means good game, usually being use when the person won the game or lose the game. But what is it related to him? I am confused. I drop him the same sentence, but he never reply me anything. I guess something bad is there....Wxin..haiz...nothing to say about u such a good friend..
Today lion is the same again, scold me sha po, scold me sot pat lak, scold me noob, scold my head, tell me go die...the main part is...he say non of his business...this is the first time he give me such reply, I am quite surprise for finally he knows how to 'shoot' me back. Okay, I will come out with something better next time...let's just see!!! But I realise another thing this time, he is just flirting around...no big deal. I am nothing special to him.
I am terrified everytime when my phone suddenly vibrate. I will really scare if that is the Michael's call or message again. I believe he won't do so, scorpio don't do so. I have to really start planning and thinking what to do next... If there is no way to avoid from this battle, I will face it..with full strength and concentration this time. I have nothing for him to threaten. Prince? Someone else will take care of him, no worries. You thought that small thing can fail me? NO WAY!
I tried to translate the whole thing to squid, but I realised my englsih is damn poor and I can't even remenber what is 'yuan lai'. I tried to translate like what Michael Lew sent me to her. She also shocked when see so...perhaps I do added my own language...This is insane...this person is insane...I have to so something to stop him and stop the situation from going worst.
I understand one thing today. I am not suitable to play game. I don't know how to play games, I don't understand the rules of the games.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Thursday, April 28, 2011
28.04 daPrawn's Cottage
The Michael Lew suddenly sms me again say he will revenge on what I did, I ignored his message. To be honest, I was totally blanked out, I totally forgotten who is this basterd! And terrifying after that as after a long nice break suddenly the evil one appear to ruin my life again. Yet, I tell myself I won't let him to do anything hurt me again. No way to let this basterd to ruin my life once again! NO WAY! If one day I got crazy, I might straight away kill off this basterd! Now just put cross finger and see who will die first.
I scared today after the sms. I do tried my nest to concentrate in my job but it does not really work on my way. However, it makes think less about lion's matter. I need more time to think about my own matter right now...this is my own matter, I shouldn't pull anyone into this mess. That is why I push prince out at first, remember?
After 2 blur-ing days, today I turned back to normal. Today Sem was a bit abnormal, seems to be over excited one...usually she will always scold people, but today she was so friendly to me. Perhaps the summary I did to her helps alot.
I scared today after the sms. I do tried my nest to concentrate in my job but it does not really work on my way. However, it makes think less about lion's matter. I need more time to think about my own matter right now...this is my own matter, I shouldn't pull anyone into this mess. That is why I push prince out at first, remember?
After 2 blur-ing days, today I turned back to normal. Today Sem was a bit abnormal, seems to be over excited one...usually she will always scold people, but today she was so friendly to me. Perhaps the summary I did to her helps alot.
27.04 daPrawn's Cottage
Yesterday night I went out with Squid until quite late, I reached home about 12am. Very tiring but enjoy...miss the moment in college so much.
I believe I have make up my mind, at least in this moment I do have make up my mind to stay single for another year in order to do well in my study and go UK. I really wish I could follow my previous plan and have a better future, although my heart does not wish the same way. Can it be dragged for another 3 years? I hands everything to God, God please decide everything for me, He will know what is the best for me. God please holds me from being tempted if that is not what you want me to do.
My heart keep flying to elsewhere after he told me about that. I couldn't concentrate on my job...I have to learn on controling my emotion and not letting it effecting my performance. I am trying my best to act like I dont care anything and I don't really take it serious....but....just can't control. I am very confuse with his reply that day "wahahahahahaha...oh yeah"...what does it means? Perhaps I should give myself a big slap, wake up! Prawn!
My colleagues keep on making fun on me, they were too used to that type of me who loves flirting and joking around (Am I?). They were not used to this type of down down and cool cool Prawn. They keep on saying I look very funny today especially when I am quiet and blur blur...I am so blur until I didn't realised it when they making fun on me.
Wxin keep on saying I am人老珠黄...what lah her....I am still young and energetic okay?! But it's just because this few days I am a bit abnormal that's why I look super weird...Don't simply say I am人老珠黄 leh!
Today I got scolded by the big boss's secretary, quite upset at first but I am still glad she scolded me, at least I could learn something from her. She say the way I do things is not right, my things is very messy and she doesn't like the way I keep on giving a the resume piece by piece...I decided to make her a summary of the candidates so that it will be easier for her to read throught all the detail. I hope it helps^^. Today, I learned 1 thing- Big girl, when you face something or get any complaint, see what is the main problem of the complaint and try to find a way to figure it out. Big girl, don't cry when people scolded you, you need to learn from your mistakes.
Today Lion seems a bit busy and upset, I really wish to know what is happening to him. Although he never say anything, I believe it is related to his job because that is the only thing he would never share with me. Even if he does, I wont be able to understand as well...we are from totally different field and I am too young to understand the real working environment...perhaps not really too young, it is just because I am immatured.
I believe I have make up my mind, at least in this moment I do have make up my mind to stay single for another year in order to do well in my study and go UK. I really wish I could follow my previous plan and have a better future, although my heart does not wish the same way. Can it be dragged for another 3 years? I hands everything to God, God please decide everything for me, He will know what is the best for me. God please holds me from being tempted if that is not what you want me to do.
My heart keep flying to elsewhere after he told me about that. I couldn't concentrate on my job...I have to learn on controling my emotion and not letting it effecting my performance. I am trying my best to act like I dont care anything and I don't really take it serious....but....just can't control. I am very confuse with his reply that day "wahahahahahaha...oh yeah"...what does it means? Perhaps I should give myself a big slap, wake up! Prawn!
My colleagues keep on making fun on me, they were too used to that type of me who loves flirting and joking around (Am I?). They were not used to this type of down down and cool cool Prawn. They keep on saying I look very funny today especially when I am quiet and blur blur...I am so blur until I didn't realised it when they making fun on me.
Wxin keep on saying I am人老珠黄...what lah her....I am still young and energetic okay?! But it's just because this few days I am a bit abnormal that's why I look super weird...Don't simply say I am人老珠黄 leh!
Today I got scolded by the big boss's secretary, quite upset at first but I am still glad she scolded me, at least I could learn something from her. She say the way I do things is not right, my things is very messy and she doesn't like the way I keep on giving a the resume piece by piece...I decided to make her a summary of the candidates so that it will be easier for her to read throught all the detail. I hope it helps^^. Today, I learned 1 thing- Big girl, when you face something or get any complaint, see what is the main problem of the complaint and try to find a way to figure it out. Big girl, don't cry when people scolded you, you need to learn from your mistakes.
Today Lion seems a bit busy and upset, I really wish to know what is happening to him. Although he never say anything, I believe it is related to his job because that is the only thing he would never share with me. Even if he does, I wont be able to understand as well...we are from totally different field and I am too young to understand the real working environment...perhaps not really too young, it is just because I am immatured.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
25.04 daPrawn's Cottage
Due to the effection of the nightmare I had yesterday. This morning was kinda moodly. The world seems moving slower and with sad emotion.
I talk with mom regarding Lion, what she told me was exactly like what Squid told me. Do I think I am still available for any relationship? Although I really wish I could get a good and nice boy before I go to UK, but this is not the way after I decided to follow the bigger plan. So, what should I do right now? Why my heart is still shaking and unable to take decision? I doubt myself and my plan...
This morning I was abit sensitive. I am really worry if the person might suddenly pop out infront of me and pull me into his car. He is insane, he will do things different to usual people and the main problem is....he knows me.
Today I am very emo, deep depressed. I tried to look for somebody to talk but no one is free for talk. Everyone is very busy with their own jobs and works. Miss my bibiiiii so much.... down down down down down~~~ until the sky is falling down....
Keep on having diarrhea today, this might due to the instant mee yesterday and never eat dinner last night. Don't know why, just too moodless to have anything. Although no one trying to make problem with me, but just seems like trying to make problem with myself and my surroundings today. This is a weird day. This diarrhea actually makes me more sleepy and more lazy to work. The feeling was like Sick + Monday Blue + Femine Periodic Blue and the whole person become so blue and green...cum grey as well!
I tried to look around msn and whatever source I can to get people to chat...well, failed, it doesn't help in pull up my mood and I keep on making others down. I am too good in affecting others..perhaps? I try to look for some particular friends to chat, but they never online T.T~~ So I have to chat with myself...
I decided to do something pretty silly today. I went and buy myself a urine pregnancy test pen although I knew that is imppossible to be pregnant at all, the reason behind is just wanna spend some money and do some silly stuff to cheer up myself in this stupid moody day. I went into Guardian, I don't know what to do suddenly, this is my first time buying such thing, quite shameful but I still did it... No one was looking at me, perhaps I looks like it is fine even to be pregnant.
I went for KFC myself today, these two days eat alot of junk food like Instand Mee and fast food. Today's KFC was not tasty at all, maybe because of my own moody day caused everything to be so abnormally bad.
I talk with mom regarding Lion, what she told me was exactly like what Squid told me. Do I think I am still available for any relationship? Although I really wish I could get a good and nice boy before I go to UK, but this is not the way after I decided to follow the bigger plan. So, what should I do right now? Why my heart is still shaking and unable to take decision? I doubt myself and my plan...
This morning I was abit sensitive. I am really worry if the person might suddenly pop out infront of me and pull me into his car. He is insane, he will do things different to usual people and the main problem is....he knows me.
Today I am very emo, deep depressed. I tried to look for somebody to talk but no one is free for talk. Everyone is very busy with their own jobs and works. Miss my bibiiiii so much.... down down down down down~~~ until the sky is falling down....
Keep on having diarrhea today, this might due to the instant mee yesterday and never eat dinner last night. Don't know why, just too moodless to have anything. Although no one trying to make problem with me, but just seems like trying to make problem with myself and my surroundings today. This is a weird day. This diarrhea actually makes me more sleepy and more lazy to work. The feeling was like Sick + Monday Blue + Femine Periodic Blue and the whole person become so blue and green...cum grey as well!
I tried to look around msn and whatever source I can to get people to chat...well, failed, it doesn't help in pull up my mood and I keep on making others down. I am too good in affecting others..perhaps? I try to look for some particular friends to chat, but they never online T.T~~ So I have to chat with myself...
I decided to do something pretty silly today. I went and buy myself a urine pregnancy test pen although I knew that is imppossible to be pregnant at all, the reason behind is just wanna spend some money and do some silly stuff to cheer up myself in this stupid moody day. I went into Guardian, I don't know what to do suddenly, this is my first time buying such thing, quite shameful but I still did it... No one was looking at me, perhaps I looks like it is fine even to be pregnant.
I went for KFC myself today, these two days eat alot of junk food like Instand Mee and fast food. Today's KFC was not tasty at all, maybe because of my own moody day caused everything to be so abnormally bad.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
24.04 daPrawn's Cottage
Jesus Christ has risen!
Easter Day, finally I was baptisted. Thanks God for saving myself and thanks God for guide me, lead me, carry me and keep on forgive all my sins all these 8 years. Big and high mighty God, He deserves all the glory and praises.
I had another nightmare during my nap today, quite extreme one. In my dream, Zeus has back for revenge. I was in his car again without reason, then I tried to get out from the car again but I couldn't succeed. He drove quite fast until I can't close back the door again. He brought me to a clinic. The clinic has back door and front door...from the front door, I keep running to the back door, then run to another crowed chinese clinic and run to their back door again....keep on running and running until the bus stop, there was a rapidKL bus there. I took the bus without seeing where the bus will go...*wake up* Oh God, please do not make this dream real, I do not want him back again...please me sure he will be out from my life forever and ever.
Went out yumcha with Auntie Sally and my sweet Princess Janice. Miss her alot recently and finally see her^^. She is still as cute as before, and she speak better already. She is now 5 years old, her mom is looking for primary school for her. She say Janice is very naughty, and very talkative. Janice loves taking photo and play with phone, she loves taking her dad's photo.
Easter Day, finally I was baptisted. Thanks God for saving myself and thanks God for guide me, lead me, carry me and keep on forgive all my sins all these 8 years. Big and high mighty God, He deserves all the glory and praises.
I had another nightmare during my nap today, quite extreme one. In my dream, Zeus has back for revenge. I was in his car again without reason, then I tried to get out from the car again but I couldn't succeed. He drove quite fast until I can't close back the door again. He brought me to a clinic. The clinic has back door and front door...from the front door, I keep running to the back door, then run to another crowed chinese clinic and run to their back door again....keep on running and running until the bus stop, there was a rapidKL bus there. I took the bus without seeing where the bus will go...*wake up* Oh God, please do not make this dream real, I do not want him back again...please me sure he will be out from my life forever and ever.
Went out yumcha with Auntie Sally and my sweet Princess Janice. Miss her alot recently and finally see her^^. She is still as cute as before, and she speak better already. She is now 5 years old, her mom is looking for primary school for her. She say Janice is very naughty, and very talkative. Janice loves taking photo and play with phone, she loves taking her dad's photo.
Friday, April 22, 2011
22.04 daPrawn's Cottage
Good Friday, Jesus Christ die on the cross for our sins. Today is also the Earth Day. So, love our earth, love your Jesus Christ!
Early in the morning, my eye-sight is so bad until I can even see the escalator clearly, my eyes were too tired. Honestly, I don't feel like working again, just feel like relaxing at home and watch tv. I need a break.
Lion approached me few days ago, but I believe he is just playing around again this time as it is not the first time he approached me. "He will not dare to approach you face to face, he is too noob" his friend said that, "He is just flirting around, don't take it serious." But don't know why this time I was abit affected, perhaps because he keeps talking on the same topic for the whole day. I was abit upset as the next day he was not on the line, but I droped him an IM too. I got his reply this morning, he is back to normal, start scolding me again...wakakakaa..this time is the real him, he should be the one always call me go die la, eat shit la, bang wall la, then talk about my head la~ then ask me go chop my head off la....anyway, I learned a lesson from there. I have to learn not to take things too serious next time.
This morning Kelvin talked about the school magazine and he needs to find sponsorship for the pages and so on. He asked me to help him on typing letter...I actually rejected, but....haiz,..typ for him la...who knows my dear laptop (company's laptop) was so panai...go off itself...all my hard work gone T.T~
Something about 11am, I started to be busy as the candidates came in. Ms Jeannie and me was so pity, we do not have time to went out for lunch. Thanks Yvonne for buy me Secret Recipi Stawberry Mashmellow Cheese Cake, thank her for rescuing my lunch! wakkakkaka~
The trainees who came today was so friendly, they reminds me my time in Citibank. I miss that time alot, everyone of us was so closely stick together that time and alway go for lunch together. We also went for movie together^^~ That time we also have Jeanette with us...aww....I remember when I broke up with Senior, they all was there always accompany me when I was ruined. That's the power of friendship. Thanks alot to all of them!
CY has not back home yet. I have no idea is there anything I can help on that. I keep thinking it might be because of me, although everyone tells me I am thinking too much. I know him since form 3, he loves his family alot and he is a good guy. My mom told me he was admiring me all the while, I didn't knew about that even when he is keep on doing good things to my family and so on, I thought it is just because my mom and his mom are good friends. He changed since he knew about me and Prince...he suddenly leave his house and never go back again...Everyone doesn't know what happen to him also..He treated his mom very rude when she called him, he would never does that before this...this is not CY's style...
Early in the morning, my eye-sight is so bad until I can even see the escalator clearly, my eyes were too tired. Honestly, I don't feel like working again, just feel like relaxing at home and watch tv. I need a break.
Lion approached me few days ago, but I believe he is just playing around again this time as it is not the first time he approached me. "He will not dare to approach you face to face, he is too noob" his friend said that, "He is just flirting around, don't take it serious." But don't know why this time I was abit affected, perhaps because he keeps talking on the same topic for the whole day. I was abit upset as the next day he was not on the line, but I droped him an IM too. I got his reply this morning, he is back to normal, start scolding me again...wakakakaa..this time is the real him, he should be the one always call me go die la, eat shit la, bang wall la, then talk about my head la~ then ask me go chop my head off la....anyway, I learned a lesson from there. I have to learn not to take things too serious next time.
This morning Kelvin talked about the school magazine and he needs to find sponsorship for the pages and so on. He asked me to help him on typing letter...I actually rejected, but....haiz,..typ for him la...who knows my dear laptop (company's laptop) was so panai...go off itself...all my hard work gone T.T~
Something about 11am, I started to be busy as the candidates came in. Ms Jeannie and me was so pity, we do not have time to went out for lunch. Thanks Yvonne for buy me Secret Recipi Stawberry Mashmellow Cheese Cake, thank her for rescuing my lunch! wakkakkaka~
The trainees who came today was so friendly, they reminds me my time in Citibank. I miss that time alot, everyone of us was so closely stick together that time and alway go for lunch together. We also went for movie together^^~ That time we also have Jeanette with us...aww....I remember when I broke up with Senior, they all was there always accompany me when I was ruined. That's the power of friendship. Thanks alot to all of them!
CY has not back home yet. I have no idea is there anything I can help on that. I keep thinking it might be because of me, although everyone tells me I am thinking too much. I know him since form 3, he loves his family alot and he is a good guy. My mom told me he was admiring me all the while, I didn't knew about that even when he is keep on doing good things to my family and so on, I thought it is just because my mom and his mom are good friends. He changed since he knew about me and Prince...he suddenly leave his house and never go back again...Everyone doesn't know what happen to him also..He treated his mom very rude when she called him, he would never does that before this...this is not CY's style...
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
20.04 daPrawn's Cottage
'Caterpillar on the tree, how you know what you will be? Can't go far but you can always dream.'- Butterfly fly away by Miley Cyrus
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