Remember you used to call me middle in the night, whenever you have some exciting ideas and amazing plans, and when you’re down as well. “Dunno” you used to say it with your own lazy slang, sometimes really annoys me, but your caring and helpful really bring me up when I’m down. You know exactly what I needed. You taught me how to treat people in right manners, what should be done how should be done, and you told me how a girl should be treated in a relationship. You told me the other side of the world that I didn’t knew. You see my selfishness and did your best to explain your god-sisters kind of relationship. You see me through and accept the darkest side of me, accompany me throughout the valleys. Whenever I got cheated or got dumped, you were the first man behind holding me tight. “Stay strong, love is just an illusion, a lame game” you said. Thanks for all these, everything you did. And thanks for being available whenever I call. No worries, I’ll be fine soon. I was just little bit depressed to remember that you’re gone so long. Sorry for being this late my dear, I lost almost all memories about you and I’m trying to get it back bit by bit. I’m in good hand now, don’t be too worry about me. He is a nice man, taking care of my clumsiness and blur case habits. And I’m now a mom, my son sometimes reminds me about you. He is mysophobia and perfectionist like you did, he’ll gets mad whenever his toys are not kept at d right place. He loves putting his hand under my pillow whenever I sleep. He sometimes hug me tight when he sleep. No worry about me, I’m having good life now. Btw, I just learned to make ondeh ondeh, it’s my first attempt, doesn’t taste good as Little Penang’s. Remember we promised to get married at the age of 30 if both of us are still single?And you left just right before that. I’m 32 this year and you shall forever stays in 29. I always thought we can grow old together. Perhaps when we are 60s, we may laugh when thought about our promises. Thanks for keeping promise and stay in KL forever eventhough I’m still not going back yet. Really hope you’re in good and healthy life, wish there’s no pain and illness in heaven. Still love you like the day you left, my Jun dear, my heart torn into pieces whenever hear your name.

我想了很久，但找不到任何聊天记录。我想16年我跟Junior应该是见面过的，可能在我签购房合同回去那次，也可能我是直接给他拨的电话，因为我有很深的印象他那会儿已经算在KL半定居了。我记得他右眼受伤了，医生说可能就是永久性伤害要做好当独眼龙的准备。我记得他还开车了，他说现在他对于估计距离有点费劲，印象太深刻以至于我后来右眼眼角膜破裂的时候我还自嘲了一番。 他们问我为什么5年了我才有那么大的感触，我想说，Junior是不会问我这样的问题了。Junior知道我的慢半拍，也只有他知道我需要一个大哭。我潜意识里把Junior离开的事情封存了，我很长时间不记得我跟他有那么好的关系，甚至当时候有种莫名其妙的释然，甚至很长时间仅仅觉得他又失踪了，但以前挺多半年他就会联系我了，这次花了5年。 我很用力的去回想我们的点点滴滴，we aint nobody for each other, im not a cold blood or forgetful person, yet it may be too hurt and my mind isolates every moment with him. I cant remember much regarding him. But bit by bit pictures about him popped up, and it is hurting everytime when it happens. I search through all medias i could reach, trying to recall his face and his voice. I couldnt get much from it honestly. miss you alot dear, still miss you like the first day you gain your wings.