This few days have some arguement with Lion. It is not really arguement but seems like self-'entertaiment'. I don't really know how to explain it by words but just I am angrying with him for no reason. The reason behind is facebook. It is true that facebook is a good way to know a person well but it also spoil the person's name. What happened was there was one girl left a message to him on fb saying miss him and so on. He reply said will go back to Malaysia on 9th July because wanna date her, ok, then he really immediately go back get a long leave for that. So? I am so so so super frustrated after knowing such thing. Actually to be honest, it is totally irrelated with me...it is just dont know why my heart and my mind is just uncontrolable. I have fallen into the trap, I guess. 'Prawn, you should have stand up and walk away, I know you can! You are more than just that!' I always keeping on telling myself such thing, but it seems not really working. Fishie even said: 'For you kind of'qualification, if you really want it, go to the party like La Fiesta and turn one round already don't know how many guys will trying to approach you! Why are you making yourself so messy because of this guy?! This guy is just nothing!' Aww...but when you admire that person, even if he is not perfect, your heart will still stick to him isn't it?
The memories seems never leave my brain, it keep on turning around in my mind. I asked him about his leave, ask whether is it true he take leave to kao lui, he replied ya. I was super angry after got that answer so I replied him good luck! About midnight here, it was about 7am there, he suddenly came and msn me and asking me why haven't sleep yet. But then I replied him in a quite rude way, telling him go continue kao lui. He replied in progress ler o...then I forgot how I replied him already. Lion, is it a symbol showing you and me are just impossible? Tell me directly please, I hate being confusing like that!
I told WK about it, but I didn't exactly tell him the name and never tell him the guy is Lion. He came and approach me today, telling me should think of him rather than think of that guy. Ya, as I said before, I know something is just not right at his side, and this really comes true. I told crab about it, she seems thinking I am showing off and so on. Actually I just need a person to talk. Haiz...please, I really don't wish I will lost a friend like WK whereby I can tell him everything like what I did to Prince before we started.
Official summer welcome party, we went to it today. As per what we already knew, it will be something like clubbing again, but the feeling wasn't there. It was so so so boring until I feel like sleeping in the club! GOSH! What kind of club is this?! There was another party hold by the La Fiesta organiser to thank us for being so supportive for the last party and making it so sucess. I wish to go for that party, but Crab doesn't allow me to go. I am still sick, already like that for 2 weeks, it was recovering but then it seems going to be worsten after today's party as I shout alot. That is my style, I will out of control in this kind of situation~ Fishie told me something quite touch today, telling me not to follow her and so on...she doesn't want to make me become another clubbing kaki. But actually, for me, clubbing is a super good way to release our stress, I realised it during the last party. Like what was happening recently, I really need a way to release all my anger and stress. About 12am, all the AFI students want to go for the La fiesta party. One AFI student, that guy who came and ask for my name and so on during La Fiesta came and invite me to join them for the party, but I told him Crab doesn't allow me to go because I was sick for about 2 weeks already. So~ he also tell me faster go back home and eat medicine. Sometimes I found this guy is really so good, he download movie for me and wait me outside the block while the weather outside was freaking cold...he is just a very very very good guy, he seems like taking over all things should be done by a bf...lol..I expect he treat everybody the same, I am just one of those he treated well and he already has gf in Malaysia. Sometimes I really wish he is Lion, but he isn't.
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