So stress, the final is so close now...more pressure contained...I need to make sure I can pass all in order to go uk~ it's a must!!! Arrg!!!
Today my mom discuss alot about $$ with me today. Suddenly don't feel like going to UK, seems so pressure and so many things to prepare in order to go there. I don't like this feeling, hate it! Daddy seems don't wanna take any responsible on that matter.. perhaps I shouldn't took advance diploma, I shouldn't continue study after finish diploma...
My grandpa and all the relatives put alot of pressure on me. Everyone hoping I can get great result and able to be the first degree in my family. Everyone seems believing a degree holder must know everything. Actually degree is just a cert, it's useless! I hate this feeling!
Feel like calling someone to talk today, I need to release the pressure. Then only I realised I have no one to call, last time whenever I feel depressed or worry I used to find Prince. He is the one I always look for and always depend. Yet, now... I can't do this anymore, as what he said, we are not friend anymore, he doesn't want to hear anything from me anymore... At that moment, Zeus called. I answered the phone.. because I really need someone to talk. On the phone call, he keep talking his own theories but I didn't listen even one of the theories, I was just non stop crying over the phone... After the phone call, I can conclude that he is not a good listener.. Prince was the greatest listener.. always! He is the only one know me the best, although he doesn't believe he does...haiz...lost a great friend...aiks~~~
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