Tuesday, April 19, 2011

19.04 daPrawn's Cottage

今天本来应该挺忙的,却被我快手快脚的习惯搞杂了我的时间表,现在得空到又在打部落格了。

今天我老是跟自己的肚子过不去。其实也不是我自己想的啦!不过今天的胃口是有些奇怪。离开了谷中城,今天不再有好想吃速食面的感觉,不过呢?今天早上忽然好想吃美式早餐,好想吃煎香肠,好想吃煎蛋。在这种地方哪里可以找到美式早餐啊?只好塞一块蛋糕给自己的肚子安静一下。今天下午更痛苦,忽然好想吃KFC,这种时候哪里找KFC哦?即使有也没有人愿意陪我去啦!我的同事不知道我不吃辣,带我去吃马来餐,结果我整碟饭丢掉,因为我真的没有办法吃下去。我的午餐就这样泡汤了,还浪费了三零吉。

打给candidate的时候听到王力宏的的你不知道的事,心又一阵阵在抽痛。又想起了他,原本很饿的我连胃口都没有掉了。才明白我这种不是叫放手,而是叫防守(自我封闭和麻醉)。自己总是再告诉自己自己没事了,自己很好,自己很忙...也对啦!我是很忙,是很没有时间。可是不管再忙,心还是会惦记着他的。不管我们再怎样不适合,不管我会跑到多快,他会走到多慢,我还是会想起他的。毕竟他曾经是我的全部,他曾经是我的重心,他曾经是我的动力。他从来不明白什么是重心 (重心就是在建筑物里面的中心点,也就是最脆弱的地方。当外来攻击击中重心的时候,不管再高,再伟大的建筑都会垮下。就像九一一事件五角大厦这样。)对我来说,他就是一个这样的角色,他就是有这样的作用。

我新买的'好贵鞋子'终于被开包了!它是我买过最贵的做工鞋。它一点都不好穿,虽然它有内附cushion跟有shock absorb科技,不过它的鞋根太高,天天踩着高根鞋很辛苦。而且它的鞋底没有花纹,走路起来好象划溜冰这样。我迟些真的要找鞋匠把我的旧鞋子弄好,还有替这双鞋子粘底。

我的新裤子昨天也开包了!我好喜欢这件裤子的剪裁。穿起来不会太松不会太紧,刚刚好。^^

Monday, April 18, 2011

18.04 daPrawn's Cottage

Kelvin went home at 11.40pm last night, my mom was so angry until she does not wake him up for school this morning. Kelvin went out around 6.45am and rush to his school, I believe he will be late for class today, impposible for him to reach his school before 7.15am.

This moring I did something super funny. I went out for work with my formal wear and SNEAKERS! GOSH! I realised it after I walk until the shops row at near my house area while I was wondering howcome I could walk so fast today. My mom non-stop laughing when she saw me with my sneakers, I quickly run back to house and get my cock shoes. lof....where got people as blur as me in this world?? My mom say she also wonder why she give birth to two aliens, one blur queen and one more 'today dont wanna go home' king~ I always do blur blur things...when will I become normal abit? Like normal human?

I planned to have many candidates turn up for the interview today, but then who knows no one turned up..so sad...Today Jeannie was so busy, she keeps me waiting for her for 1 hour plus. I was so sleepy when waiting for her..wasting my time.

Manager ask me to do a lot of thing today. I couldn't finish up all the works as I wasted too much time to wait Jeannie at the reception, that is why my Executive do not like to do all these stuffs, wasting time and block our time when we have something urgent.

I went back about 7.30pm today. KL's night scene is so nice and tempting. There's one new Library branch opened near Avenue K recently, Quattro was just taken over by another club called Super Nova. But I still prefer Ipoh night scene, with lots of stars in the sky, surrounding me...I hope I will get the same night scene somewhere around KL again.. There's where I want to permanently based.

17.04 daPrawn's Cottage

Sunday, working day!

Due to the Jobstreet Jobfair, I have to go to work today! I hate it! But what to do~ I've no choice but to follow all the instructions.

Early in the morning we met at the midvalley exibition center and daydream there, we reached there too early. I do not dare to eat breakfast as I do not know what time I might need to go for lunch, just in case my lunch time is at 11 something. Don't know why, every morning I also feel like eating maggi me. The PD HR Manager tell me to go Kimgary eat their maggi mee during lunch time...so expensive you know?! RM6++ for 1 bowl maggi mee, I'll rather to cook it myself!

I met alot of old friends in the jobfair, some of them do not recognise me but most of them still remember me. I didn't change much as per one of my standard schoolmate, but I change alot in terms of lifestyle. This is so called 'time's effect', people will change according their surrounding and their history.

Today was the KLCC PC Fair as well. I hate myself for unable to attend this PC Fair as I really need to buy alot of thing! My boss say no need to go PC fair, he think it is useless to go there, I should go LowYat instead. But don't know why I just cannot trust Low Yat stuffs. Their stuffs looks so lousy and they have alot pirated stuffs, not only CD. I scare if I buy laptop there they may cheap me and give me pirated gadgets.

I purposely distribute the brouchers as fast as I could, I want to go back earlier, I want to go KLCC. But my boss purposely drag us and do not let us distribute our brouchers. They want us to stay until 7pm. After that, me and Yvonne wanted to go home, but then the boss brought us to Library and watch them drink...wasting my time..but it is a good try as finally I have chance to go into Library (with adult's guidance) hahahaha~ Me and Yvonne just took some fruit juice there and go home. My boss want us to stay and have dinner with them, but it is too late for us. Luckily the PD HR Manager say he want to go back and pack up his things already, so Yvonne and me just follow his car to go to KL Central and take LRT.

I reached home about 10pm. As what happened on Friday, I was too tired today until I don't even have energy to eat. Thanks mom for preparing dinner for me..  my mom was so upset, cause Kelvin go back home late again. He was not at home when I reached.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

16.04 daPrawn's Cottage

I've choosen the path I want to walk on, I do not know is this the best way for me. Many people tells me this is not a wise decision to be made, I shall choose something better, I will get something bigger, do not rush on making decision as that's affects my whole life. Perhaps I am too stuborn to listen, perhaps my heart is as hard as rock, perhaps...I don't have anything that motivates me to stay on. I don't know is that what God had prepared for me, I don't know what my future going to be, but I have faith on myself and my God, He will show me what He want me to do. With Him, my future is no longer in grey.

Finally I've chance to stay at home. So tired after so many weeks of shopping. Today Hangbi came my house, I keep playin with him until he does not want to stop playing. He always sit on my head and want me kacau him and kucit him...stupid dump dump la him!

Started to prepare for my journey. First of all, I have to buy laptop and camera. After I think...I think I better buy a Toshiba Laptop instead of Fujitshu, I trust Toshiba more. I have to buy camera also.

Today I went to a super lousy camera shop. They only have Olympus Tough 310, others all don't have and they are selling at super expensive price, they never update their price. The staffs there are super duper stupid, until I feel like scold them. If you don't know camera, don't sell camera! If you wanna sell camera or mobile phone kind of thing, please make sure you always update yourself with latest informatiom! I guess I'll buy either Lumix or Sony, I heard alot of bad things about Olymus recently. Their camera's quality is fine, but they don't have much function. Sony is good in design but I am quite unsecured with all the touch screen stuffs. Maybe I try to ask around first...

Thursday, April 14, 2011

14.03 daPrawn's Cottage

Yesterday online until very late, too long time neer online already, easily get addicted to the internet especially facebook after never touch it for a long time. My mom keep scolding me for online until so late, I forgot actually the next day I still have to wake up in the early morning for work.

Chat with a few friend last night while I was trying to think about the back up plan for the trip. I found one quite interesting place and I actually regreted to tell them go Colmar Tropicale after see the place, but I believe they won't like the place, only TB like me will like it. And the other thing about this place was...NO ACCESS OF PUBLIC TRANSPORT!!!! That is the main point, wherever we go we need to first consider about transportation. I believe Michelle will love it too! Maybe I shall show her the page next time.

I suddenly remember about Michelle's new working place, perhaps I should bring all my friends go that place! We can take Aircraft together! After I look at the price for their activities...GOSH! Super expensive! Ya Lah! Take aircraft wo! Definately expensive! But I'll prefer to take the Microlight, it is cheaper (RM180) and with certificate and sourvenier. I love that!!!! GOSH!!!

I tried to think of some fun places like National Science centre but all got rejected...until I betahan and tell them let's go KLIA watch aeroplane! Shelton say if rainning then go Sunway play ice-skating..I don't really like that suggestion, Sunway is a bit too far for me.

Perhaps due to the UK trip, I am totally in tripping mood right now. I have so many places to go and need to prepare so many things for my explorations within these two months until I feel like postpone some of it to after come back from UK. Now I am waiting to go Cameron Highland AGAIN this year, what to do~ my family got addicted with Cameron Highland's weather and life. So every year we will go there although my grandpa was so boring with it. I hope I still can join them for this trip next year...but I don't think it is possible for me.

Today morning the bus was sucks! I waited for half an hour for the bus, who know d bus driver purposely postpone his schedule so that he can come out with another bus with the money box. At the end, 3 same bus come out at the same time and there was only 5 same number's buses. So that means if the fella so bad luck and missed these 3 buses then he/she has to wait for another hour lo? Stupid bus driver! And stupid new system too! They tried to copy what had been done in Hongkong and Singapore, but do u think that can be effective? Hey, u stil have competitors de lo...In Singapore and Hongkong their buses all use the same card system lo? Here ar? Do you think every bus also will practice the same system?

This morning I met Christina. Feel so weird when saw her...suddenly don't know how to react.. we was so close last time, but...haiz... She was still the same, still talking like a big sister, then ask me whether finish study already or not and so on. I hope She wont go and tell Fattyboy about that. I do not wish fattyboy know so many things about me. I didn't talk much to her, try to act sleeping and avoid her keep asking question.

Totally not in working mood today. Today was totally different from yesterday. Yesterday working time seems so short and I dont even realise I had reach time to go back. Today I was keep looking at the watch and keep on asking what time can I go home...lof~ totally different me!

Some of them went out for set up the booth for the upcoming jobfair but my big boss never go. Why he never go leh?! He should go what! He should go there and watch them do things, shouldn't be staying in the office and observe us do thing! Aww....if he is not in, all of us can talk nonsense and time pastby faster leh!

Just now when I was watching tv, the person in tv says: when two hearts are sticking together, no matter how big is the trouble is we definately can conquer it...but why is mine always not strong enough? I don't understand... better stay single, don't fall in love with anyone, that the best way to protect myself. Even when I have nothing, I'll still have Orion. Whenever I look up, I'll see Orion... I don't know what will I have when I go UK, perhaps I'll see more constellation but I'll lost Orion...

13.04 daPrawn's Cottage- Last day in TARC_Last day for exam! I am Liberate!

Finally came to my last paper in my advance diploma. I hope this will be the end of it because I really do not want to have any resit on resit paper again. I hate to have resit, so ashame to have it. However, I do feel a bit lost after all the things ended...seems so fast...it is a bit too fast...I wish I could have it all over again.

Mr Chee was right, sense of direction is very important to motivate a person. When you feel lost, you won't feel like doing anything beside daydreaming...even daydream also don't know what to dream of...how pity~ I am now like a homeless child looking for direction to back home, can I go back to TARC to study again? With all my friends, same bunch of friends...

Today I met Senior's new gf's sister when waiting for the exam. She is taking exam at the same block with me. I believe she won't know about me, she won't know her sister's bf's ex.

I went to office to collect my offer letter today. Ken Yap was right, the resit candidates will not get their unconditional offer letter that fast. I need to go back to college to collect my letter again in the future. So, what I need to do now is wait~ But is there anything I can do while waiting? Work lo! Work with aimless life.

I found a funny name while I was doing the failing jobs- Loh Lai Chin..sounds like Lo Lei Jin... wakakakaka... Yvoone scolded me for laughing at people's name, but I can't control. I am so bad... everytime also laugh at people.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

12.04 daPrawn's Cottage

2 days never log on to Blogger. Too lazy and tired these few days. This morning I went to work with a totally blank out mind after whole night of dating with Commercial Banking Management. Everyone know I hate the subject the most yet now I have to fall in love with it to graduate my Advance Diploma.

My mom was about weird this few days, perhaps she betahan the way I study. I always hang out with others even during exam period. I went for shopping these 3 days since Friday to Sunday. Friday I went Isetan to buy my luggage, it is so cheap plus I really love it's design. Saturday I bring my mom go the same Isetan again. Sunday me, my mom and uncle and aunty's families went to shopping again at Jusco. People might have not believe that I actually work very hard for my study, but to be honest, I do work hard on it. If not I won't burn mid night oil... do you know that burning mid night oil is very harmful to my body and my face?

These few days I didn't bought much things but I spent alot, inflation effect (my mom say I am still staying in the olden days and believing I can buy very cheap things in KL). I don't feel worthwhile to spend on all these things but my mom say it is a neccessity, I have no choice but to buy it. I bought a luggage, 28' inch, the biggest size, I told Squid I finally can bring her to UK with me. I bought a pair of nice formal shoes, it is not really the fashionable one but it is something that looks pretty formal and neat. It is with good quality too. It's those kind of shoes you won't find it with discount in the market, it has something call shock absorb. Although I don't really understand what it means but my mom said:" That means good for your legs and backbone laah!" I bought myself a pair of long formal pants as well. I realise one weird thing about me, I love wearing pants to work, but I don't like buying pants, I'll prefer to buy skirt. Ended up I have plenty of new skirt which I have never wear before and don't feel like wearing in the future, but I keep on wearing my limited old old pants.

Due to burning mid night oil last night, today whole morning was ruined. I don't understand how am I surviving right now I guess this morning the drivers on the road must be having an 'extreemly exciting' morning due to there is a zombie walking on the road without watching for the cars. I believe God must be the one holding my steps to make sure I will not be hurt even never watch at the road. Thanks God!

Anyway, I didn't do much mistakes but finish up my jobs quite fast with a blur blur motion. I believe I am looking for things at 10 Dimension right now...so many shadows around one object. No one realised I am blur-ing when they ask me to do stuffs but it is obvious that I am blur when I stop working. I'll feel fall asleep once I stop. I don't like to wait for interviewer to come today because I might fall asleep while waiting and do nothing at receptionist's counter. However, that is my major jobscope. Whoever come for interview must first go though me. I'll prepare all the neccessary things before I call the interviewer come for interview session. I have to do that everyday. Kinda easy but boring jobs.

Today my stomach is not feeling well, I guess I ate something not that clean for lunch. One of the pieces of meat smell a bit weird, perhaps it is oxidated.

Today I have plenty works to do. They starts looking for people again after hire the last batch candidates. So, I have to start busying again~ now, just put away all those filing stuffs and start doing my own things again. Next week we have another job fair again, so I need to do all those job fair stuffs again and deal with all the candidates. Sometimes I really do not like to deal with candidates and see their fake faces, but you will learn alot while dealing with them, at least you will know how to prepare yourself for your interviews in the future. Make up is a neccessity to make yourself neat and professional but not too much, a light one will do. Thick make up makes people looks like clubbing kaki and improffessional.

I told Squid about demand of account and finance staffs in the labour market. Everytime when we say about jobs she also say she wanna quit her job, but everytime when there is a good job I wanna offer to her, she will say alot of thing to reject me. Her main problem is the probation period, she scare after she quit the job she cannot get another job again...pening saya... LOL....the finance market is so big, why cannot get jobs leh?! Another thing is, when you go for interview, you can tell the person that you need 1 month notice!