Looking at the picture of the guy I love...perhaps I love him too much. He told me he doesn't like comparing yet I keep repeating the same mistake, actually I really hope one day he will hug me and tell me he loves me more than I love him...

He told me his love for me had changed, more doubts and pressure contained. I was totally blank after I got this message. This message keep spining and spining in my mind, makes me felt so blur and so stress. It makes me unable to control my anger and my reaction...I can't think at all... I was keep believing we still have chance, we still have hope, but now you tell me you don't love me anymore...

Anyway, I am still alive as usual. Haven't really do anything to hurt myself...( I guess I won't this time, at least I stil can eat). Although feel so empty inside, like the support in me has lost, but I still alive don't I? Pretend to be good, pretend to be fine...thats all I can do...

Perhaps I need a break.